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Dear Riede,
     We were both fools all those years ago. I have often wondered how you go back and fix your mistakes, how you fix everything. How do you make it all better? I would not have understood the need to fix my mistakes before I met you. You made me see how much was wrong with my life, and I am eternally grateful to you for that.
     I was blind in my high-school days, when everything seemed perfect and fun. I thought the whole world was on my side then, that nothing could go wrong. I was blind and you made me see. Why is it, then, that I reverted to my idiotic ways when you needed my understanding most? Why did I let that mess get between us? I have never been, nor ever will be a bigger fool than I was in that moment.
     No, not even in high school.
                                                                 ❤ Emily
Em,
As you know those aren’t experiences we share, though I was always fascinated to hear your stories. I can’t say I would want to change a thing though. If not for my mistakes, would I have ever met you? I used to regret dropping out of highschool because I knew my life would have been very different if I hadn’t. But it was you who taught me that if things had been different, the good would be gone as well as the bad, and I don’t want that for a second. My teenage years, miserable as they were, could never surpass the joy I had when I was with you. So no, I don’t know how to undo my mistakes, and I don’t want to.
-Riede

 
EM,
YOUR LETTER WAS A SHOCK TO ME AFTER ALL THESE YEARS...
I SUPPOSE I CAN'T BLAME YOU FOR NOT EVER CONTACTING ME. I NEVER CALLED YOU EITHER...
I WASN'T SURE YOU WERE EVEN INTERESTED IN ME ANYMORE, THAT YOU WOULD LISTEN TO ANYTHING I HAD TO SAY...
I ADMIT IT. I WAS SCARED...
AND WITH THE WAY THINGS ENDED, HOW COULD I BE ANYTHING ELSE? WITH NEITHER OF US READY TO ADMIT DEFEAT, NEITHER OF US COULD EVER WIN...
I WAS YOUNG AND FOOLISH...
AND I'M SORRY.
--RIEDE

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